Tuesday, January 26, 2010

Lord, please help me to be like Jesus.

1 Peter 4: 8-9"And above all things have fervent love for one another, for “love will cover a multitude of sins.” Be hospitable to one another without grumbling."

When I continually look at these verses it literally feels like something is being ripped out of me. It does hurt and it's going to continue to hurt, but I know God has a plan for me that does not involve this evil in me. It is NOT okay that I do not love each and every person as Christ did. Yes, there are going to be some people who are not covered by salvation that will choose not to like me, but by the grace and mercy that my Heavenly Father pours out, I desire to love every person, fervently and without grumbling.

I was curious so I needed to know exactly what fervent meant, if I want to be it I need to know what it means, right? Here is the dictionary definition:

Definition of fervent:
–adjective
1. having or showing great warmth or intensity of spirit, feeling, enthusiasm, etc.; ardent: a fervent admirer; a fervent plea.
2. hot; burning; glowing.

I do not think that this word could be any more perfect, and could you expect anything less from the Perfect God? I mean really, 'having or showing great warmth or intensity of spirit, feeling, enthusiasm' that is perfection of how we are to love one another.

What I was particularly convicted about was not loving everyone with this kind of love. There are so many times when I hope that I don't run into someone because I don't have the energy to listen, or sometimes I will actually pick my stuff up and move so that I don't sit near someone during worship because I can't stand their singing. Nowhere does the bible pardon these actions. In my flesh I make up pardons 'because this one person just drains the life out of everyone', or 'because this other person makes a greatly joyful noise, but not the most beautiful noise.' THAT is sin. I feel it in my bones, this is something I need to pray that the Lord will stop me from continuing. How can I help others get close to God, or get close to Him myself if I am being so exclusive and evil myself?

I am weeping at the thought that I know that my actions and words have hindered others, my sin has stumbled others from growing closer to Jesus. I ask for forgiveness.

The best part: Grace and mercy
. God is so gracious and so merciful, He will chasten me, mold me and make me to bridle this sin, as He has done with every other unruly attribute about my life. He is in control. 'Being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ' (Philippians 1:6)

Lord, please help me to be like Jesus.

Saturday, January 2, 2010

Making Lasagna

No Pictures but I made around 10 Lasagna, a batch of ravioli, and enough fettuccine pasta to feed 8 really hungry people. I was a busy lady yesterday! I'm probably going to be a tad tired at work tomorrow, but of course I'll get the job done!

I do not know what how this happens, but everyone says that I make the best pasta, well everyone that has not had my aunt T's pasta, now that is bomb. But this is her recipe so I'll pass it along to you; I always measure how much pasta I am going to make by how many people I am feeding and it goes one egg per person and from there it is a ratio:

ONE cup of flour to TWO eggs. (serves two people, 1/2 cup for one egg)
1/3 of the total flour is SEMOLINA and the remaining 2/3 is all purpose white flour.
add SALT and EXTRA VIRGIN OLIVE OIL (or any type, this is just what I buy)

mix and mush all ingredients together in a bowl until the dough starts to form a ball. Roll the dough from the bowl to a dry, floured counter top and kneed well. If the dough feels dry sprinkle water on it and continue to kneed, if the dough feels wet, add flour and continue to kneed. The dough should hold it shape yet be a little squishy and pliable. Once finished cut into cubes and then run through a pasta machine (I have a hand crank one that my aunt gave me). Follow the directions for your machine for use.

There ya go! From there, you can make lasagna or make fettuccine, spaghetti, or any other type of pasta by feeding the long strips of pasta through the cutter attachment.

It's too late

Apparently for every hour you are awake after midnight your body needs two hours of sleep to compensate. I am thinking I am going to be asleep really late tomorrow.

I decided to reactivate this blog honestly because I was jealous that C has one and I do not. I do not have any idea who is going to read this, why they would, or where I'm going with this whole adventure but we shall see what happens. Speaking of C, she has one amazing family that lets me bug them for hours on end every once in a while (I think every married couple needs that one single gal that hangs around) any-who tonight was one of those nights. I hopped over to their house after hanging with my large, loud, lovely family and making canaloni which shall be blogged about later, I'm sure. After her children were asleep C, Her Husband, D, CW and I all played an intense game of scrabble. It was so much fun. I for once got second place. CW, he beat me, what a stinker.

Anyway after that CW left (leave while you're ahead, right?) and C and I continued to have a lovely conversation while D scoured the internets for amazing deals (he is awesome at finding deals on things, it's a quirk that I plan on taking advantage of in the near future) and playing fake poker. All three of us sitting at their green round table, C and I eating the canaloni that my family and I made for new years talking about gluten bonds forming through kneeding bread and the fit of designer jeans as well as her son, E and daughter C, and how adorable they are. It was over all a great night, I would score it a ten of ten.