Tuesday, March 30, 2010

1 Timothy 1:12-17

12 And I thank Christ Jesus our Lord who has enabled me, because He counted me faithful, putting me into the ministry, 13 although I was formerly a blasphemer, a persecutor, and an insolent man; but I obtained mercy because I did it ignorantly in unbelief. 14 And the grace of our Lord was exceedingly abundant, with faith and love which are in Christ Jesus. 15 This is a faithful saying and worthy of all acceptance, that Christ Jesus came into the world to save sinners, of whom I am chief. 16 However, for this reason I obtained mercy, that in me first Jesus Christ might show all longsuffering, as a pattern to those who are going to believe on Him for everlasting life. 17 Now to the King eternal, immortal, invisible, to God who alone is wise,[a]be honor and glory forever and ever. Amen. 1 Timothy 1:12-17

I in no way want to compare myself with the workd that the Apostle Paul did through the strength and guidance of the Holy Spirit, but I feel as though I can identify with this verse so well. Many times throughout the day I feel as though I am the biggest sinner of them all. I feel ashamed. Every moment I know there is only one way that I can make it though the day, and that is the strength that Christ gives me through the Holy Spirit. I think I am going through a season where the pride I have in things that I hold dear to me is being broken down so that through my life God can be glorified. I want people to look at me and think 'That girl loves Jesus!'

About two weeks ago I started praying that God would Glorify Himself through me. In the last week of so God has opened my heart more and it has been much easier for me to remember to read my bible, to pray diligently and wholeheartedly, to speak up about Jesus and to want to do ministry work again. I am so happy that I have that desire back, and I give that triumph to GOD completely. I know that this work in me is not completed, but I know God is faithful and He will complete this work He has started "being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ" Phillipians 1:6.

Peace to you and the love of Jesus Christ. Amen.

Monday, March 22, 2010

Hard Work Truly Does Pay Off

Okay so I won't do many of these posts bragging about my weight loss, but I have truly lost half of the weight that I wanted to lose. I am so happy and cannot wait until I have lost it all. I have been working hard for about seven weeks and lost about a pound a week.

About a year and a half ago I started losing weight by eating right and lost about 40 lbs. this is a picture of me at my heaviest:

This is the most recent picture of me that I could find (I picked one of my face because that is what is most prominent in the other photo). This is from a hike with a bunch of friends on a day when I was prepared for an afternoon of wine tasting hence me being dressed up:

To sum up: I'm so happy with the way that I look now. I have about 7 to 10 more pounds to go, but once I get there I'll probably want to lost more, haha. I am so blessed to have the support, love and encouragement that I need to get back to being healthy.

Thank you to everyone who has helped, loved and supported me!

Sunday, March 14, 2010

Inner Monologue

Yep, this post is going to be about how my brain works. Well not the biological/anatomical part but the part about how I think and where my mind goes at 12:15 at night or any time is the day for that matter.

Bottom line: I think way too much.

The awful part is that it is not about anything important or something that needs my attention right then. Just three minutes ago I was thinking about how computer chips are made because I was thinking about how in about 20 minutes it is going to be daylight savings so we are going to miss the entire 2:00 hour so I am going to have to change all the clocks so that I am not late for church in the morning. I started thinking about how so many people do not use analog clocks and it's all about digital and for the most part the digital clocks are programed to change for you (cell phones in particular). I thought 'in the future nobody is going to have to remember that it is daylight savings time because either it won't exist anymore because it's kind of ridiculous or we will all have programmed out cell phones for the alarms and the phones switch automatically which we won't have to worry about ever again. Then I thought that the only one who is going to have to remember when daylight savings time was would be the man (or lady) who programs the computer chips in the phones. It's exhaustive listening to my thoughts all day and still I can't sleep.

I thought all of that paragraph in about 45 seconds. I'm a freak but I've come to enjoy it.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010


So these past two weeks I've gone and watched my friend Cameron play hockey and it was amazing. Freezing but amazing. I've resolved from this to become a hardcore hockey fan. Yes, I will buy a jersey once I figure out which team I like (suggestions are welcome) I will go to games, and I will learn the rules and all the other junk that goes along with committing to a sport to follow (but of course not in place of Jesus). I'm quite excited about it and cannot wait to continue learning about this new interest.