Monday, December 19, 2011

What’s the trouble with turning 23?

Let me tell you, dear, what the trouble is: {at least for me} my body is malfunctioning!! Since I’ve turned 23 (four weeks ago) I’ve been cursed with acid reflux {which plagues my whole family but I’ve never had} and heart “shudders”. That’s not a technical term. It feels like I have a butterfly in my chest. There probably isn’t anything wrong with me, but I get to go have an EKG {Electrocardiograph} so they can measure my heart. I’m not scared. Seriously, I’m not.

I am however scared of this: These problems have severely changed my eating habits (granted it’s been about three days that I’ve had to live with the changes, but that is the first three days of the rest of my life). I cannot eat refined sugar (due to acid reflux) or have coffee more than three times per week! It’s going to be a major change for this sweet-toothed-coffee-lover. This combined with not eating dairy {I’m pretty sure I’m allergic to the protein} is going to be a challenge.

I am going to need a lot of prayer to keep on this, but I did ask the Lord to help me lose weight and having acid reflux every time I eat something made with refined sugar is not what I had in mind, but plus side: now thinking of eating a cookie makes me want to cry. I don’t like to cry therefore I will not eat said cookie. Bam. Problem solved. I won’t eat the cookie.

This will be hard when I read about Emma’s beautifully baked treats, Joy’s amazing culinary skills, Jill’s beautiful delightsMallorie’s 12 days of baking and Tracy over here (she actually has a lot more then sweets but I still want to eat all of her food). See what I mean?! Tough cookies… dang it.

This has been encouraging me lately:

John 10:22-30

22 Now it was the Feast of Dedication in Jerusalem, and it was winter. 23 And Jesus walked in the temple, in Solomon’s porch. 24 Then the Jews surrounded Him and said to Him, “How long do You keep us in doubt? If You are the Christ, tell us plainly.”
25 Jesus answered them, “I told you, and you do not believe. The works that I do in My Father’s name, they bear witness of Me. 26 But you do not believe, because you are not of My sheep, as I said to you. 27 My sheep hear My voice, and I know them, and they follow Me28 And I give them eternal life, and they shall never perish; neither shall anyone snatch them out of My hand29 My Father, who has given them to Me, is greater than all; and no one is able to snatch them out of My Father’s hand. 30 I and My Father are one.”

I feel like I got side tracking somewhere in the middle there, but in general it’s been a hard few weeks… I’m going to need a LOT of help from the Lord to sustain me and change my noshing on sweets habits. Even something seemingly as simple as this needs to be labored over in prayer (with God’s help anything is possible). 

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Lunch rules!

I love lunch. Usually I reheat some homemade soup (chicken & vegetable). I make up the entire recipe each time. Sometimes it’s more of a stew, others it’s really soupy. Today it’s a little more soupy with lots of squash, potatoes, kale, corn, beans and lentils. Oh, and there is some chicken in there too. It’s so good on a cold day!

yummy soup, terrible photo. oops!

There are two connotations to the title; to tell you how awesome lunch is and how I’ve come up with rules for my lunch time. There are only two, so it’s pretty simple to remember:
1.       If I have one hour for lunch I must spend at least 30 minutes moving (dancing, walking, exercising)
2.       While I am nuking my lunch I will do squats.

Okay, I gave my insecurities about my body to God a while ago, however I still want to be healthy. I’ve come to an understanding that just because I am trying not to have insecurities about my body doesn’t mean that I shouldn’t take care of it (duh). SO in that case, I’m back to move moreand eat less (and actually doing it- I didn't lose the 20lbs that I wanted to- and that's okay but confusing, because I do eat very healthfully and hardly eat flour [is this as bad as everyone says it is?] and move A LOT but still lost nothing...).

Off to take a walk now!

How to squat, in case you don't know already:

My new Post-it note (to help me not eat mindlessly):

Friday, December 9, 2011

21 days is too long in between blog posts.

The last three weeks I've been busy. I had a birthday (I turned 23), three parties and Thanksgiving happened. I got a promotion/ job change (yay!) and there haven't been any earthquakes. I watched Little Women against my will (I cried) & I had some awesome family time. I finished reading Deuteronomy and Joshua. I'll start Judges tonight. These are the last three weeks in photographs:
I bought a fake tree and decorated it.
I saw my family for Thanksgiving and learned how to play a "Cars" game.
Birthday Party #1 (polenta on the board).
Played "Hell". Oh, you don't know what that is?! I'll teach you. It's awesome.
Painted my nails with my aunts and sister.
Crackle nail polish is really neat.
We had Salad made by aunt Theresa, who makes some awesome salad dressing.
This is my family.
Isn't he the cutest?!
From Caiden To Bethany. I am your best friend. :)
Home made Pazookie.
Birthday Party #2.

I bought this dress, then returned it.
I made a wreath.
I went to the Fort Mason Center.
I visited some friends and played pool in their living room.

wrote on my  hand.
Watched Elf.
My dad gave me a lovely key hanger.
Made some banners and hung this one on my vanity.
This one is on my awesome lamp.

Took a picture of a moth this morning.
I cried after reading this, it was so beautiful:

Deuteronomy 34
Then Moses went up from the plains of Moab to Mount Nebo, to the top of Pisgah, which is across from Jericho. And the LORD showed him all the land of Gilead as far as Dan, all Naphtali and the land of Ephraim and Manasseh, all the land of Judah as far as the Western Sea, the South, and the plain of the Valley of Jericho, the city of palm trees, as far as Zoar. Then the LORD said to him, “This is the land of which I swore to give Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob, saying, ‘I will give it to your descendants.’ I have caused you to see itwith your eyes, but you shall not cross over there.”

So Moses the servant of the LORD died there in the land of Moab, according to the word of the LORD. And He buried him in a valley in the land of Moab, opposite Beth Peor; but no one knows his grave to this day. Moses was one hundred and twenty years old when he died. His eyes were not dim nor his natural vigor diminished. And the children of Israel wept for Moses in the plains of Moab thirty days. So the days of weeping and mourning for Moses ended. 

Now Joshua the son of Nun was full of the spirit of wisdom, for Moses had laid his hands on him; so the children of Israel heeded him, and did as the LORD had commanded Moses. 

But since then there has not arisen in Israel a prophet like Moses, whom the LORD knew face to face, in all the signs and wonders which the LORD sent him to do in the land of Egypt, before Pharaoh, before all his servants, and in all his land, and by all that mighty power and all the great terror which Moses performed in the sight of all Israel. 

I feel like I got really close to Moses reading about him for so many months. I enjoyed his story and loved his devotion to the Lord. His story to be depicted perfectly the grace and justice of the Lord. Reading the Pentateuch has taught me so much about the Lord redeeming works and how much He loves His people. I understand a little bit better about being one of His chosen people. I understand a little more about being His beloved. I understand a little more about His justice and His grace. I want to live out this beautiful faith through good works. The Lord is the giver and the provider, and through reading these first books of the bible, I understood that a little more.

that might be a little heavy for a Friday, forgive me.

Cute cat video:

Friday, November 18, 2011

It’s Friday night

And I just, just, just! Got Paid! Money money money money… okay I’m still on a boy band/ 90’s music kick. I’m sorry. I’ll stop. Maybe… Which is better: constant Christmas music or AWESOME 90’s boy band music? Personally, I’d like a mix of the two. Maybe Christmas music sung by boy bands… what?! No, that’s crazy…

Yeah, that just happened. I’m sorry. I had to do it. I couldn’t help myself. (P.s. I know that the video is covering stuff a little- I just don't know how to fix that... sorry!)

What are you doing this weekend? I’m going to grocery shop/ wander aimlessly at Target and Trader Joes,  take my baby sister (she isn’t a baby, I just like to call her that when I’m being nice- usually I call her something glamorous like Snot Head or Booger Brains... Something that has to do with mucus for sure) shopping at Jeremy’s in Berkeley (if you haven’t been you NEED to go. Now. Stop reading this and get in your car and drive there and buy stuff. It’s phenomenal. Well, maybe that is a little exaggeration… it’s a pretty sweet store with some pretty sweet deals on some pretty sweet stuff) and go to church (twice- baller!) and hang out with friends. Jam.Packed.Boom.

I like having my weekends jam packed with stuff to do and I also like them to be completely empty (which won’t happen until the holidays are over I’m sure- Oh shoot- I haven’t even written a lot about the Holidays like a good little blogger… oops. I’ll get right on that… next week…). 

Happy weekend!

Bridge shot:

Friday, November 11, 2011

Today has been a really fun day.

I really love Friday’s. They always seem to pop up with so many fun things to do (even at the office!!).

Today I…

  • Fixed our behemoth printer dubbed Tj JR!!!! {The name is funny if you know Tj, but since you don’t you probably won’t find it funny}
  • I created and nurtured a Spice Girls Pandora station. Yes, I did. No, I didn't let “Barbie Girl” by Aqua play. I just couldn't let myself go there. I did make it play “Waterfalls” by T.L.C. I tried really hard not to sing... I sang under my breath…

                Seriously, Mya was amazing… where did she go? Oh, there she is…
                … I forgot how much I love the Backstreet Boys and N’Sync
I just had so many fond memories FLOOD INTO MY HEAD of jumping on my bed, singing into a pretend microphone belting {at the top of my lungs with no shame & completely off key} “all you people, can’t you see, can’t you see, how you’re love is affecting our reality” and “Bye, Bye, Bye”. Oh, so good.
  • I braided my hair. I don’t have pictures, but I really like it. It was inspired by this post at "A Beautiful Mess". Lovely, lovely blog but you probably already know because you probably already read it.

                Sing it J-Lo… Her love don’t cost a thing…  except two (or is it three) really expensive                 divroces… oops... was that mean?

  • I had chili from Rudy’s Can’t Fail Café {seriously- I need to learn how to make this stuff, it’s amazing}
  • I listened to Gungor, Page CXVI, India Arie and Boyce Avenue today. Good music.
  • I organized the shipping area at work (woot!) I laughed as I was telling someone that "their job is not finished until you put away all of your supplies that you took out" because my mother always told me that and I would get so mad! Mom- you're in my head. How do you feel about that? :)

The other fun thing that is happening today is with my church, Sanctuary Berkeley. We are going to head up to Epic Faith Church in San Rafael to see Page CXVI in concert, for free. Yep, that’s awesome. Yep, I'm stoked. Have a little listen to what will be tickling my ears in a few hours...

...sooo many links today...

Friday, November 4, 2011

Being in Awe & Dancing

Awe /ô/
Verb:     Inspire with awe: "they were both awed by the vastness of the forest".
Noun:   A feeling of reverential respect mixed with fear or wonder: "they gazed in awe at the small mountain of diamonds".
Synonyms:          fear - reverence - dread - fright - funk – terror

Dance /dans/
Noun:   A series of movements that match the speed and rhythm of a piece of music.
Verb:     Move rhythmically to music, typically following a set sequence of steps: "their cheeks were pressed together as they danced".
Noun:  dancing - ball - hop
Verb:  hop - leap - jump

I was reading Proverbs 30 last night with my bible study group {Hi Edna Group!} and was struck with the way that Agur was honestly in awe of the mystery that is the Lord. I want to be in awe more, don’t you? Do you ever find yourself just staring at things and wanting to just study them or know more? I do all the time. I think that I want to start leaving a bit of mystery and start seeing things with a heart full of awe and wonder.

I love to dance. Seriously, it’s the best. I love reading that people in the bible (especially kings) danced. The picture of David dancing in my head is really silly and it makes me smile. {multiple examples: Exodus 15:20-21, 1 Samuel 18:6-8, 2 Samuel 6:13-15, Psalm 149}

This morning I woke up put on Foster the People “Helena beat” (listen to the song, but don’t watch the video… it’s a little disturbing…) and started shakin’ what my mama gave me and thinking about how beautiful the Lord made the sky today when I caught a glimpse of myself in my PJ’s and I actually thought that I looked {GASP} adorable. Maybe that is how the Lord thought I looked this morning. I had fun dancing in the mirror this morning (sorry neighbors downstairs…) and I didn’t feel insecure about my body what-so-ever. The Lord really works quickly to change willing hearts.

So, when you are feeling down I would like to suggest the the infamous words of Mr. James Brown to “Get up offa that thang and dance till you feel better. Get up offa that thang and try to release that pressure!”

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Weight-y Issues

"Never confuse fashion and style. Fashion relies on unattainable looks on women with unrealistic bodies. Style is about utilizing the best aspects of you."
-          Stacy London, What Not To Wear

Today I was thinking about my body and what I don’t like about it. Those are such awful thoughts. I am here, sitting thinking obsessing about my larger then “normal” mid-section and BOOM it hits me : “I am judging myself off of someone else’s standards and not God’s standards”. God cares most about the life that I life, not the fact that I can’t wear a slinky silk dress because I don’t have rock hard abs. I obsess over by body because of clothing and the body is MORE then clothing (and life is more then food). I have the  body that the Lord gave me and it is not perfect, but it is the one that I was given. The "perfect" image of myself in my head honestly doesn’t look ANYHTING like my real body. I would probably have to be about 4” taller (and who can add a single cubit to his stature by worrying) and about 45 lbs less. Neither of those things are going to happen.

After a while I took a break from work and was reading This Blog I came across the quote above. I realized that the idea that I have in my head is from years of coveting fashion (something that is not attainable by the average person- only the ones with a very specific body type) and not cultivating style (something that is attainable since I base it off of my body). I am never going to be 5’9” and 100 lbs (that would be WAY to thin, I’m exaggerating here) heck I’ll never be 5’5” (my actual height) and 100 lbs! And I might never want to be able to run 10 miles, and that’s going to be okay. The Lord knows what my body looks like and He knew what it would look like when He knit me together in my mother's womb. He knew before anyone else and I am going to take comfort in that. Today I give my insecurities about my tummy to the Lord.

Maybe by next year I'll be over this silliness and feel confidant enough to wear a bikini...

Preserve me, O God, for in You I put my trust.
 O my soul, you have said to the LORD,
         “You are my Lord,
         My goodness is nothing apart from You.”
 As for the saints who are on the earth,
         “They are the excellent ones, in whom is all my delight.”
 Their sorrows shall be multiplied who hasten after another god;
         Their drink offerings of blood I will not offer,
         Nor take up their names on my lips.
 O LORD, You are the portion of my inheritance and my cup;
         You maintain my lot.
 The lines have fallen to me in pleasant places;
         Yes, I have a good inheritance.
 I will bless the LORD who has given me counsel;
         My heart also instructs me in the night seasons.
 I have set the LORD always before me;
         Because He is at my right hand I shall not be moved.
 Therefore my heart is glad, and my glory rejoices;
         My flesh also will rest in hope.
 For You will not leave my soul in Sheol,
         Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.
 You will show me the path of life;
         In Your presence is fullness of joy;
         At Your right hand are pleasures forevermore.
Psalm 16; A psalm of David {NKJV}


This blog affirms that food can be is sexy. Read these descriptions and feast your eyes on the photographs and all you will want is whatever this chef makes. I want to actually read her cook book... does she have a cook book?

Anyhow, this makes me want to blow my diet.

Speaking of my diet:

I don't think I've lost any weight, but my body feels strong and I am starting to like the way my tummy looks {I don't think I've told anyone written about this on the blog, but my tummy is the part of my body that I am most self-conscious about. I like my body well enough but I just wish there were less tummy to like}

I've been eating mostly alright. Halloween kinda messed me up with all the chocolate. Also I found an almond ice cream that tastes like amaretto cookies (yum!) so I've been keeping that at Corynne's house so that I don't have access to it all the time in the middle of the night. It's really yummy.

Speaking of Halloween:

We had a picnic in a graveyard for our "Trunk or Treat" Decor.  A B-Boy and Clark Kent helped me. 

I was Marilyn Monroe.

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Everyone is talking about it and I want to to be cool too.

If you don't buy "A Very She & Him Christmas" you're a dope. For Serious. I would honestly question if you have proper hearing if you don't like it... well, not to your face...

Get it from the iTunes store or here.

Got the image from the website linked above.

Saturday, October 29, 2011

Why do you blog?

I was reading the ba-gillion blogs that I regularly follow {Do you have any good ones? I constantly acquire more} and I was thinking “why do I blog”? All of these ladies and gents have things to say. They have projects to show, they have neat things to talk about, and places and gadgets to see.

I started blogging because of a class in school. I continued blogging because I wanted to be cool; but now…

*Cue Horace Silver’s Calcutta Cutie (which you can do below)*

I was am thinking about it {knowing me I’ll think about this a lot} and I think the reason that I blog is to just get the things out of my head {somewhat} organized, to show you what I’m doing, to tell other people what I think is cool and hopefully you’ll think it’s cool too but more then all of that I want to be able to show you what it looks like to follow Christ. I’m not perfect, and that’s okay. I want to be able to let you (or someone) see my life with the good and the messy and to show you {and remind myself} what it looks like for me to follow Christ.

My greatest desire is to be a woman who resembles Christ by clothing myself with strength and dignity, being joyful and when I speak being wise and kind (See Proverbs 31:25-26). I want to be able to say (along with Paul the Apostle) to the women that I am will be ministering to in Berkeley “Imitate meas I imitate Christ”. I am still will always be figuring out how to work this out in my life but I know that I’ll need to abide in Him, serve others because I have faith, keep His commandments, properly fear the Lord my God, love the Lord my God with my everything, and love my neighbor as myself. It’s a tall order, for sure, and I know that I will fail. I also know that all of my failures and sins (yours too) have been paid for by Christ living a perfect sinless life and dying as an innocent man. Because of this we have been reconciled to God and we can choose to accept or reject this. Either way you will change your life for eternity {and that's a long time}.

Now that you have this information, what are you going to do with it? Are you going to reject or accept? It’s your choice… sort of {1, 2, 3, 4) ;)

This was a little heavy for a Saturday, oops... so... Why do you blog?

Friday, October 28, 2011

Me in 1998 & you know, stuff.

Cousin Kelly, Sister and myself.

Cousin Kaite, Cousin Kelly, Me, Cat, Sister.
My dad's friend just dug these up. I'm glad he passed them along. I was about 13 9 (thanks Dad, I don't know what I would do without your math skills... haha) in these photo's. I was blonde (naturally) and rocking my some lovely shorts, right?

I looked up to these girls so much. Now I look up to these women so much.

I really like these verses right now:

"For ask now of the days that are past, which were before you, since the day that God created man on the earth, and ask from one end of heaven to the other, whether such a great thing as this has ever happened or was ever heard of. Did any people ever hear the voice of a god speaking out of the midst of the fire, as you have heard, and still live? Or has any god ever attempted to go and take a nation for himself from the midst of another nation, by trials, by signs, by wonders, and by war, by a mighty hand and an outstretched arm, and by great deeds of terror, all of which the LORD your God did for you in Egypt before your eyes? To you it was shown, that you might know that the LORD is God; there is no other besides HimOut of heaven He let you hear His voice, that He might discipline you. And on earth He let you see his great fire, and you heard his words out of the midst of the fireAnd because He loved your fathers and chose their offspring after them and brought you out of Egypt with his own presence, by His great power, driving out before you nations greater and mightier than yourselves, to bring you in, to give you their land for an inheritance, as it is this dayknow therefore today, and lay it to your heart, that the LORD is God in heaven above and on the earth beneath; there is no other. Therefore you shall keep His statutes and His commandments, which I command you today, that it may go well with you and with your children after you, and that you may prolong your days in the land that the LORD your God is giving you for all time."

Deuteronomy 4:32-40


I am really loving "Change is Hard" by Zooey Deschanel.


I’m all outta luck but what else could I be?
I know he’s yours and he'll never belong to me again.
I did him wrong.
So don’t brag,
Keep it to yourself.
I did him wrong.
I was never no, never no, never enough,
But I can try, I can try to toughen up.
I listened when they told me
If he burns you, let him go.
Change is hard, I should know.
I should know.
I should know.

So I'll keep my head down
If you keep it quiet from now on.
In the halls I’d rather hear silence than the bell of new love.
So don’t brag,
Keep it to yourself.
I did him wrong.
I was never no, never no, never enough,
But I can try, I can try to toughen up.
I listened when they told me
If he burns you, let him go.
Change is hard, I should know.
I should know.
I should know.
I should know.

Thursday, October 27, 2011


Yesterday I wrote that I wanted to learn more about typography. I have been loving more and more the posters that are so artfully printed with varying sizes and colors and fonts of the words chosen for the page.

This webpage is really cute. I really want this one.

This website frequently has beautiful stuff.

I have a few pieces and I want to showcase them like this. I'll probably use binder clips, wire and nails and hang the wire more straight. Capisci?

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

What is in my head:
  • I want to be a teacher.
  • I need to pray more.
  • I need to sleep more.
  • Why can’t I think of any other sing but a Sugarland song and the chorus from “Rock of Ages”.
  • I should listen to some music.
  • Can I even go back to school? What would my life look like if I did? Could I even function working full time and going to school full time?
  • For the love of Pete why is it so cold in here??
  • How come I always use two question marks to emphasize a question?
  • I should learn more about typography.
  • Maybe I’ll get a weighted jump rope so that I will actually have fun while doing cardio… yeah, right, like that is even a possibility. Riki Lake lost 20 lbs. in 6 weeks… I bet that I could do that too… yeah, totally. If she can do it, so can I. Well, I can try. Okay, no bread, peanut butter, jelly or cookies for six weeks. That’s until December 7th. My birthday is on November 26… I can cheat for my birthday. I really want cake for my birthday. And I want pumpkin pie. And caramel… Okay, be strong and I can do this, right? Yeah, the weighted jump rope (is there even such a thing?) and me. And probably Corynne’s encouragement. A lot of Corynne’s encouragement will be needed (got that, Cryn?).
  •  Weighted jumpropes do exist.

  • Kitty cat mug:

  • Other recent photos:
Family Dinner.

let me draw your hand.

"I'm Slipping"

Pumpkin bread pudding

Cousins and Cousin's girlfriend at dinner.

Put your hand here.

Giant legs and normal sized Dave or is Dave just far away?

Sword fighting. For reals.



Sunset the other way.

Sun set the right way.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

I do not have a shoe problem.


Photo credit from here, I think...

My Shoe "problem" is more of an enthrallment... There justified. ;)

Now I just need to come up with an amazing way to display my enthrallment.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Sick week.

Let's face it. I've been totally fine...  a tiny bit sick ... losing my voice for the past week. 

I like to talk. 

A lot.

To make myself feel better without going to the doctor (I'd rather be at the dentist) I did the following:
Spent time dressing up in the morning.
Drank hot water with lemon and honey.
Ate a PB&J
Drank that nasty stuff again (don't leave the lemon in for long...)
Wore awesome socks.
Read Deuteronomy 2 (made my heart feel better- not my throat).

Had a mini  self portrait photo shoot which resulted in the following:

Tried to get into the Christmas spirit with the mug and my favorite vintage mickey sweater (love it!).

 Needless to say, none of these really worked, but it made for a fun week!!