Friday, May 25, 2012

Learning How to Love... Again.

“In this is love, not that we loved God but that He loved us and sent His Sin to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, If God so loved us we also ought to love one another”. 1 John 4:10-11

I am hard hearted.

I am stubborn.

I am a brat.

I am totally selfish.

I love winning and I hate losing so I just don’t play games which I tend to lose. When I do lose I feel totally defeated and turn into a sulking, sore loser.

I get jealous when people pay attention to others or so special things for others and not me. I think I deserve more than I have.

When I do not have myself in check (a.k.a. when I’m just “being me”) I am totally ungrateful.

I’ve been realizing how much of a brat that I am lately and I don’t like the ugliness that I see.

Two Thursdays ago in a bible study with some of my friends in Oakland I challenged myself to pray and read my bible consistently every morning and every night before bed. My objective: to spend quality time with God. I wanted to grow our relationship, let Him speak into my life and start listening to the Spirit rather than all the junk that I’ve got going on up in my mind.

The outcome: In my reading a few nights ago I came upon this verse. Well, this whole chapter actually. The entire chapter crept up on my heart and has made itself cozy all up in there.

I have been thinking about the case that the verse above makes for a few days now: love one another because Jesus died to be the propitiation for our sins because He loved us. I cannot argue my way out of this. I cannot make this into something that won’t change me or my heart.

Something’s already started to change and move. Jesus is doing something to make me a better lover -no, dad not like that. What I mean is that I am learning to love the way that Jesus wants me to- unselfishly with a heart motivated not by what I want to get rather by the love that He displayed for us.

As I repent I take comfort in the writings of the apostle Paul “Now the Lord is the Spirit; and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. But we all, with unveiled face, beholding as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are being transformed into the same image from glory to glory, just as by the Spirit of the Lord.” 1 Corinthians 3:17-18

As the Lord removes this veil of sin from my face I am excited be begin seeing Him more clearly. I am excited to re-learn how to love. I am excited to gain liberty through the Spirit.

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

Two weekends ago I went to the beach.

We had a picnic in the car because the wind was throwing sand into our food (we also had quite a few pop chip casualties). We took photos (well, everyone else took photos- I played). There were 30mph gusts of wind. I thought I was going to fall off of the rocks.

After Jonathan, Bethany, Joe and I had some time so we went and got salt water taffy. Yum. Then we got some fish and chips at the boathouse. If you are ever in Bodega, go here. It’s pricy ($10.75 for one huge overflowing basket of fish and chips) but it was very yummy.

 This is the only picture that I took:

Jonathan- if you give me more photos, I'll take this one down.

Rules & Heroes/ Sin & Grace

I wrote this on 2/29/2012

Two  Sunday’s ago I was a helper in Sunday school for the children and the lesson was about how the Bible is not just a book of rules and not just a book of stories about heroes but that it is much MUCH more. Since then I’ve been thinking about the attitude with which I have been reading the bible. You see, I’ve been s l o w l y making my way through the Old Testament. It can be tough for me to not just look at these profitable words as stories of heroes or rules that I should flippantly apply in my life. Sometimes it takes me weeks of prayer, speaking to  re-reading the same passage and pondering certain stories to get to the bottom of what the Lord is trying to communicate to me; these are times that I feel so dry and a little silly for not being able to grasp a concept. Other times what I am supposed to be learning can be as clear as day; these are the times when I feel so fluidly connected to the Lord that the transfer of information from the Spirit to my heart feels more like osmosis. Both situations are profitable; struggling to learn something helps it to become engrained in your personality. However no feeling or earthy pleasure is as sweet as when I am encouraged and rejuvenated by the Holy Spirit through God’s word.


I wrote this on 3/7/2012

Then the Lord saw that the wickedness of man was great in the earth, and that every intent of the thoughts of his heart was only evil continually. And the Lord was sorry that He had made man on the earth, and He was grieved in His heart. So the Lord said, “I will destroy man whom I have created from the face of the earth, both man and beast, creeping thing and birds of the air, for I am sorry that I have made them.” But Noah found grace in the eyes of the Lord.” Genesis 6:5-8

This week I am studying to teach for the children’s bible study and almost weeping- just little tears. Through the story of Noah we are learning about sin; what it is, the consequences, how it deeply troubles God and the universality of it. Just as I am reading in the “Teacher’s Text” of the section of how wicked my heart is (and almost crying) the author brings up chen- GRACE. She brings up that grace is free and how because Noah found favor with God is the reason that he walked with God not the other way around. You can’t earn Grace. We haven’t done anything to deserve it. The author mentions at the end of the section how God accepts us and saves us by His grace- saving His people continually through the Old Testament and Sending His only Son to die on the cross in the New Testament.

Noah was just a man, nothing more and nothing less. Noah was just a man who walked with God because of the grace with which God saved Noah and his family. Noah is just a man who trusted God even though what the Lord asked him to do was different than anything he had done before; Even though Noah’s friends scoffed at him. The Lord asked Noah to do something, and Noah did it. Noah was just a man, perfect in his generations. Noah walked with God.

The curriculum that we are using at Sanctuary Berkeley is called The Jesus Story Book Bible Curriculum. The Curriculum follows the bible that was written by Sally Lloyd-Jones and Sam Shammas. The “Notes for Teachers on the Text” were written and developed from material by Timothy Keller and Redeemer Presbyterian Church- no wonder I cried.

Tuesday, March 6, 2012

Exploratorium (catch up post).

On the first Saturday in February, Instead of doing a craft day for the bridal shower that I was throwing for Selby I decided to go with Corynne and her kids to the Exploratorium. We listened to some stuff, played with some bubbles, sat on some chairs, played with perception and basically had a stellar time. Check it (sorry the photos are fuzzy- kids tend to move faster then my phone can capture):

Wedding Season (sort of a catch up post).

In my life, wedding season is over on Saturday with the wedding for which I am the Maid of Honor.


My friends Madalyn and Andrew were married on the 11th in Oakland. Their ceremony was AWESOME because they are quite humorous and their ceremony truly reflected their personalities. They incorporated aspects of Shakespearian acting (they attendants were dramatis personae, we were the audience, the pastor was the narrator) it was really interesting.

Then the next weekend my friends Michelle and Patrick were married. Their relationship has been a testament of trusting in the Lord and true love for one another. The way that they have grown together in the Lord is just such a sweet testimony to the way that the Lord works.

Michelle and I became friends after she moved from Southern California to Santa Rosa a few years ago. Every time we get together, I leave feeling encouraged, loved and blessed. I am so happy for their marriage.

Last weekend I did get to hop over to Michelle's house and she let me pilfer some of her wedding décor. Man-o-man do I feel like a lucky lady. The stuff was gorgeous! This is a link to some photos from their wedding. Their photographer, Sun and Sparrow Photography did an amazing job!  You can see how many lovely things they did have and make for their beautiful wedding. (and the lovely couple)


On Saturday the countdown to the last wedding ends. Jon and Selby will be married. I can’t wait to see what everything will look like all together. I can’t wait to meet the rest of the bridesmaids and hang out with the wedding party after the wedding. I’ll be posting plenty of cell phone pics after I’m sure.


I do have the pictures back from the bridal shower I threw for Selby. I’ll share some of the décor shots later this week.

Monday, March 5, 2012

Art for my walls

Little known fact about me: I love Taxidermy Butterflies and Beatles.

I know, It's weird. I just love it.

I love the idea of having my apartment be like a museum with all of these beautiful specimens. Right now I'm loving these little beauties, all of them are from a shop on Etsy based out of SF called Bug Under Glass on Etsy.

Why do I take forever to update this thing & my cousin came to town.

Since I was a little MIA for the last few months I am going to be posting way too many a few updates this week to fill in for the last few months.

Most of these posts involve my “off” days from my diet. Don’t judge.

Okay, you can judge, but I did get this workout DVD and have been fairly diligent with it (3-4 times per week- I can already see definition in my legs). You may laugh at this, my friends have already. I hate actual working out but I love dancing, so this makes me actually want to work out. I trick myself into doing it. I’m really sneaky.


My cousin Kelly and her fiancé, Grayson, came from Texas. This is what happened.

We went to a bar in SF

Kelly and I at the bar.
We went to the beach in Bodega for whale watching. My sister, Paloma, and her boyfriend, Justin, came with us. It was chilly but a LOT of fun.

Paloma, Kelly and me. 

Kelly and Grayson.

Paloma and Justin

My feet.
My dad made biscuits and we ate them with poached eggs. (ohmygosh these are amazing). I don’t know what recipe he uses, but look in the comments. I’m sure he will leave a link. 

Oh, yeah.

We went to Russian River Brewery for lunch. It was yummy but hard to eat there with a dairy allergy. 

My mother told me that I should try internet dating. I think she was half joking, half serious. (I prayed about it and decided that it’s not for me.)

Sometimes I do choose to suffer from my allergic reaction (stuffy nose and headache) for my love of sweets. This is from Sift, it's a cupcake bakery in Sonoma County. They have a few stores and I really enjoy this acai berry flavored cupcake. We bought the cupcakes then went to the Flying Goat to eat them. Coffee & cupcakes, what a sweet (pun intended) end to a sweet weekend.

Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Sanctuary Berkeley's First Service

Oh. My.Goodness.

This has been a crazy few weeks. Most importantly: SANCTUARY STARTED LAST SUNDAY!!!. Okay, I should have told you before, but seriously I was so busy I didn't even think about it (plus the 10 people that read this thing I know in person and told already). Good thing that this will be going on every Sunday at 10am, right?

I am so proud of the Sanctuary Team. They have become family and I love them.

We are meeting at Washington Elementary in Berkeley (see flyer below for details). The school is perfect. There is a beautiful space for the kids, a HUGE play yard, a large multi-use room (with chairs) that we are using for the sanctuary, a little area for coffee and goodies and a new friend, Rafael the Janitor.

This space is wonderful. It's what we needed. The Lord provided it and it's awesome.

There were people there that I've never met who had heard about the church through a website or from word of mouth. How awesome is that?! Some friends came down to visit us then we all went out for lunch at La Mission then we scooted over to get some coffee at Local 123.

I honestly feel spoiled to know that I will be spending my Sundays worshiping God in this beautiful city with my beautiful church family.


If you would like to know more about the church or would like to give to us please check it out here.

Here is the flyer that will tell you more about where to meet on Sunday's.

p.s. mid-week prayer is starting on Wednesdays at 7:00pm this week (I think it's this week). If you want info please sign up for the emails (they are sent out once or twice a month).

p.p.s. There will be a Superbowl party. You will want to attend. It's going to be totes clutch.

Monday, January 16, 2012

My Friend, Peter Lundblad.

Most of you should know of Peter. He is an amazing photographer (I'm not just saying that to butter him up, he is REALLY good). He and our friend Micah came down and I took them around Berkeley and Oakland so Peter could take some photos. Little did I know I would be in some of them... (eek.)

Why don't you jump over to his blog to check out what he does.

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I have picked a decor theme for my apartment.

After much inspiration searching and design absorbing I have picked a "theme" for my apartment: Industrial Vintage.

My tastes have changed and evolved a lot since I started "collecting" things. Most of the stuff that I have now I don't love as much as I used to. I'm hoping that I will be able to work all of these things into some semblance of the cuteness that I see in my mind.

Right now my apartment is FULL of junk that I don't use/ don't need and I am going to get rid of a lot of it by Thursday (that's a goal- I won't be heart broken if it doesn't happen) and fill my apartment chalk full of new and more functional things. My only rule: things MUST be donated before any form of shopping/ bringing things into my house is allowed to happen.

These are some of the  things I want or have inspired me:

Ektorp love seat found at Ikea.

Rast nightstands from Ikea. Idea and photo from Apartment Therapy. These will house my shoe problem. I''ll stain them very dark.

Awesome vintage/ industrial fan. Found this little beauty over at Amazon.

Hand made afghans. These beautiful granny squares are made by  Rebekka at Dear Friend,. I'm thinking of knitting one or two.

I swooned when I saw this beautiful shelving unit. It is made by  Killer B. Designs

This little lovely will be my new coat rack. I've been wanting one of these for a while. I will leave the galvanized pipe unpainted and the wood will be stained dark to match the RAST stuff. I found the tutorial over at Hrrrthrrr.

I really want an awesome file cabinet. I found this one via google on tini.  Or maybe I'll get a metal one and spray paint a stencil on it... hmmm...
I think I'm going to do this or something like it on my nightstand drawer faces.  This is also from Hrrrthrrr.

I am so inspired by Elise over at A Beautiful Mess. She recently was married and has been doing a home tour. I have been totally inspired by the way that she combines all of these pieces. 
I love these Terrariums. I feel like I wouldn't kill this and I really love how cute these are... I can think of one vase that is awkwardly sized for flowers but PERFECT for something like this. These little beauties are made by Emma over at Food Coma.

I was also inspired by this post at apartment therapy about getting rid of boxes that you do not need anymore. Ahh, purging.

I am planning on painting my coffee table and a bookshelf white. I am hoping to have this finished before Sanctuary Berkeley starts Sunday morning services in 4 weeks (what?! crazy awesome *happy squeals*) and I have people spending the night at my abode. I'm also hoping to host a bible study and prayer night or weekly crafting night so I definitely want to have less clutter in my space and more function. I am excited to see what my home will look like once it's done and I'm excited to have house guests warming my home on a weekly basis... That reminds me... I am going to need more quilts for the air mattress...

Hopefully I'll have some great updates and photos to share!